Disney’s Beauty & the Beast (1991)

beauty-and-the-beast-disney            Disney’s Beauty and the Beast (1991) has been a fixture since I was 8 years old and (like everyone else) captivated by the music and animation.  Each time I watch the movie it represents my queer and homosexual experiences.

Belle’s reading, bravery, and compassion made her my Disney princess; Ursula and Maleficent had been my favorites up until then; Oliver and Company was my Disney film up until then.  Belle was the outsider as princess – the villagers thought she was odd, while Jasmine or Snow White were born princesses with privilege.  Belle’s desire to escape from her village to experience the bigger world mirrored my own queer desire to escape suburbia.  Unlike Ariel and Eric, or Aurora and Phillip, Belle and Prince Adam’s love formed organically.  Yes, I do find prisoner falling in love with their jailer romantic.

The Beast is Heathcliff-type romantic.  He is downtrodden and angry, insecure about the future because there had been so much rejection.  His fear and pain reflected my own, entering the dating realm with baggage of rejection and pain before having even begun dating.  The Beast also became the model for my ideal partner: rough with an awoke interior.  As well as a certain minotaur fantasy.


Aeon Flux

Aeon.Flux.23Aeon Flux was my time, 30 minutes where no one bothered me or tried to have time.  Similarly, my father had his wrestling and my mother had her knitting and crafting shows.  In a family where parents were healthily involved in their children’s lives, having time that was private and uninterruptible was precious.  It felt awesome to be 12 years old watching MTV, and it felt better that no one bothered me.

Mom had watched Aeon Flux once because she wanted to know why I stayed up late on Fridays.  She found it too weird and went to bed, saying If I don’t understand it so go ahead and watch.  I felt smart because at 12 years old I still thought my parents were the smartest people in the world, and to be engrossed in something a parent found difficult was the greatest feeling in the world.  I felt like an adult!

Aeon Flux is the ideal a femme fatale, a fetish that was a malleable dominatrix.  She had designed her persona to be any fantasy.  She always had what people wanted and took what they had.  She is a pragmatist with a heart of gold having three back-up plans to her back-up plan.