My gay identity has never been known. I have no formed queer identity, rooted in beliefs, attitudes, and values. My identity has been separated into different baubles, adjectives that carry their own connotations. Through critical analysis of my formative years, the books, celebrities, television, and movies, I will involve myself in crafting my gay identity. Finding my cultural identity will provide a relationship to queerness; homosexuality is same-sex attraction, while queer is cultural practice. The personal essays here create my tether to queerness, allowing me to develop a critical lens, a tool that will aid in how I navigate and perceive the world and my relationship to it.