As Joey and my correspondence broke down my romantic life became a deconstructed romantic-comedy. Joey’s friend Ben swooped in and began talking to me. we hung out and did dugs. By the end of Spring Break, we were dating and by summer we were boyfriends. Around Thanksgiving Ben wrote an email to my parents, telling them I was homosexual, and that he was in love with me. I found out because my mother forwarded me the email. I was destroyed. I was humiliated. Ben’s letter is a moment I have been internally living down.
I do not know why I continued to date Ben, and then drop out of college for him. Ben was my first boyfriend.
One-night Ben had admitted that the only reason he had spoken to me was because he had a crush on Joey, and wanted to investigate who I was (what was appealing about me). Ben had wanted me distracted so Joey would lose interest. Then, he says, he began to like me and fall in love with me. We were together for three years.
The relationship immediately after Ben was with Frank Maha. I had met Frank through Ben, who was buying drugs from Frank. In truth, Ben was cheating with Frank. Later, Frank admitted to me that the reason for sleeping with Ben was so to break Ben and I up, so he could date me.